Wow, what a hard day I've had. Who knew that changing your Facebook relationship status to reality could have such devastating emotional effects? I've spent the day alternating between pain and paralysis. I had planned to write thank-you notes and finish my resume today, and ended up getting nothing done at all. I knew anything I wrote today would come out wrong. I know - I'm being normal again. It's just that being normal can be so terribly uncomfortable at times.
Tomorrow I'll go back to work. First I need to run by the bank and get some problems straightened out with online bill paying, so I told Kathy I wasn't sure when I'd get there. I have my eye appointment set up tomorrow afternoon. I need to get all that done before the end of the month, when your insurance will run out. I have information on the way about COBRA. When your death benefit information came from the company, they had you listed as no longer in management. I know you must be, because the insurance continued. So I have upper management looking into it for me. I'll take whatever and be grateful for it, but the difference is so huge that I had to question it. I should hear tomorrow, and I'll let you know how it comes out. Either way I'll make it, so don't worry about me.
I'm off to bed, probably to snivel myself to sleep. I wish it was you on the other side of the bed, instead of Bert the Stuffed Hippo. His arms are way too short to cuddle with, and yours were so long.
I love you with all my heart,