Friday, October 25, 2013

Landslide & A Woman's Mind

Dear John,
I have such a mix of emotions tonight! I have no idea which one to go with, so I'll just present you with a smorgasbord.
Prednisone kept me up last night. I finally got to sleep around 4:30, and got up at 8 for work. I worked a long, good day and got home after 7 tonight. It was a satisfying day - I got a lot accomplished.
I have a Lia Sophia party tomorrow morning, so I spent the evening getting packed up and ready. I'm always excited, looking forward to them. I have another one scheduled in ten days, and am hoping to get at least two bookings from each party. Property taxes are due next month!
And just as I was feeling good about things, somebody posted a new version of Landslide on Facebook tonight, and I sat here and listened and cried. That song always has that effect on me. And the tune is so haunting - it gets stuck on my mind and stays there for days. I did build my life around you, and now - as I've said before - I'm missing my primary load-bearing wall.
But what I do have is Prednisone. Breathing is definitely worth the side effects, but it always keeps me up at night, and it always intensifies my emotions. It turns up my physical and emotional rheostats. The emotional smorgasbord would still be here without Prednisone, but it would consist of ripples rather than tidal waves. I should begin to approach a steady state soon, since I'm decreasing the dose.
I have to get up early, so I'd better get to bed. Not that I'm likely to sleep, but at least I'll give it a try! If you want to drop by tonight, it's pretty certain that I'll be awake!
Love you, adore you, worship the ground you walk on,

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