Dear John,
It's been an unusual day.
It started at 2 AM when I woke up coughing, wheezing, with an upset tummy. I took Mucinex, but it was about an hour before I was able to get back to sleep, so I curled up with the animals and used the time for prayer. As I prayed, I felt all the stress and fear falling away from me. For the first time in weeks, I felt what I've been knowing by faith - that God loves and cares for me. It was a gift, to feel it as well as know it. I needed it badly.

Last night put me in a much better place emotionally. I'm finding it easier to trust and not stress. Maybe the best way to say it is that I'm feeling more like myself than I have in a while. I spent two years not being afraid of anything at all - the worst thing that could happen to me had already happened, so what's left to fear? And I've spent the last two months being terrified of everything. Now I'm feeling a peace that I haven't known for quite a long time. I seems to have found some reality in the midst of all this upheaval.
So thank you for praying for me - don't stop on account of me feeling better tonight. I'd chatted with Father yesterday and know he was praying for me, too. I have a ways to go before life settles down. But I feel better able to face it today. Thank you.
Adore you,
Joan.
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